ytd was twinnie day!
we went starbucks to study! joked,laughed and of course, played around.
we did study okay.. left at bout 5.30. tmr exam le. won't be posting till exams finishes? i guess so.. bye people. GOOD LUCK FOR URE MYE!!!!!! (:



ytd was also the 28th. this life sucks. wad should i do? i hate the life now!! i was strong ytd. why am i so weak now?

hectic week has passed. phew. haha. this week is all bout study study and more studying! seriously, i am stressed. waoh! first time see-ing clarissa stress? . yea. i can say first time i am working so hard for the exams.yeps. ytd, hong lao shi nv come. and betty came to our class for relieve.

was okay luh.mr yeo said he wanted to relieve us for half an hr, but in the end he didn't come. outside 3 joy there were police. zzzz. ask he shang(jerome lee) wad happen he say gt fight. teacher also involved. oh well.

i can say, our school really is a frequent visited place by the police. ashamed. maybe going to study with judith later yay! haha(:


dedicated to the person who once love me(and you should know who you are) ;
oh well. i am contented. for a guy like you. to be able to love me wholeheartedly for bout a yr plus? yeps. but for that two months, i am dissapointed in what you did. walking that way back home, i cried. there are full of our memories all on it. i will keep those memories, and yes, i will move on with my life. no matter how hard i cry, you won't come back to me. i dunwan to force you anymore. keeping someone who dun love you by ure side is painful and a suffering for both. i won't regret. because i fought for you. but if this is going to be the ending, then so be it. if things are meant to be happen, they will happen. at least, u did love me and ure love for me for that past one yr wasn't fake, it comes from deeply from the bottom of ure heart. i am happy with that. like what someone say, people will grow stronger if they have memories that will never be forgotten. i will nv forget you.you make me stronger, in a way or another. i respect ure decision. i really hope that we can be friends, even if we cannot be bf gf. friends as in like how u treat crys they all. but before we can become friends like them, we really need to calm down first.i dun think u would read this but still, i decided to give it a try? yeps. and good luck for ure MYE. goodbye, my dear.

mich ;
thanks for telling me to fight for him. like what you said, i dun regret at all. because i know i have already tried my best. thank you sister(: i love you always!!

crys, jud, fiona, ber and the others ;
thank you for consoling me(: i am fine now. really. i love yo guys luh!

wasn't that moody. MYE coming and i am choinging. HAHA. byebye people.
good luck for ure MYE!!!! (:



i am damn damn damn damn damn damn damn ( x an infinity number) DISSAPOINTED IN YOU.nothing to say anymore. just very very very disappointed.

stayed back in school today to study. M.goh was disgusting!moodlesss. byebye! exmas coming so i won't be posting soo much.


i feel like an idiot. trusting you soo much when u are only treating me as no one esle. IHATEMYSELF.IHATEYOUFORMAKINGMEFALLONLOVEWITHYOU. i smile fakely today. all my smiles and laughters are fake.i dun like the feeling. i wanna laugh like how i use to laugh. i wanna smile like how i use to.i am trying to numb myself. with the funny things and homework. numbnumbumb. at the end of the day,i still feel lonely, alone.

school's boring. M.goh practically went mad today. blablabla. bye and i am off to study.




what can i do? immpossible. i feel so out whenever i am with you all.

sorry for not posting people. school's mad, fanatic and of course busy.
and i dun really rmb wad happen. except for some funny and sad ones. i'll leave the sad one out then. lets just talk bout friday.
art wasn't that mad. miss artika wasn't angry with us. haha. last week she was mad. because she fought with her bf. this week dun have because her bf just gt her a ring! haha. i know i am lame.

last lesson with hung . haha. 2 weeks past damn fast luh. rmb the first time we saw him he was just talking bout DNA and now he left? science project we didn't present, hung was late for half an hr. siao one. judith dun be sad kkay? cannot see ure lover liao..boohooooo T.T see i help u cry. hahaha.ain't i good? (:

maths. bees came attacking our school and we manage to skip maths quiz! yes. finally. we were evacuated to the dnt block. damn hot.i was playing with shixuan and jane and jody & stepf! we play hrtattack, qing ni ken wo zhe yang zuo, tian cai fa ming de doa zhuan ju. hahaha. and we play the shuai ge game again. i shall explain the shuai ge thing later. hahahaha(:

chinese. was damn boring. and daryl was singing solo! *weeet o weeeeet!* and we wree shouting encore all the way. hahaha. proud of daryl! go join campus superstar next yr! i support you!

geog ; M.goh came for half an hr only. she said there was a urgent meeting for the attack of the bees. haaaaaaa. and she left after saying some impt things and gaving out of notes. she was sick and she did notes for us.. AWWWWW~ thats so awt of u mrs goh. hahaha. to think bout it, old people is cute. esp M.goh.

after school stayed back to do art. hahah. i kinda of like my art pieces esp four of them. the other all like shit. hahahahaaaaaaaaaa. colouring madness. mich went to pass up her zhou ji to ang chew yan and we helped her pass up her art work.

on the way down, we saw 2 unity was empty hence me and jud ran up and gt out txtbks down. i help ber too! so monday i dun need to climb up liao! weeet! talking bout that. i kinda off miss fourth floor actually.the quietness and the way its at fourth floor so teachers always come up late esp M.goh. lets push joanna down the stairs again. at fourth floor, i can always see the clouds clearly.thats why sometimes i am looking outside the windows. admiring the clouds. i dunno why. but from small, i love the sky. esp the blue blue sky and the cute clouds and of course my favourite, STARS!(: oh well back to my life story.

went to art room. help artikar sort out some art stuffs our class de. then she say we( me jud and ber) will be handsomely rewarded. we ask her in wad way she say dunno. haha. mayb and bouus for marks? went to hg mall find mich and friends. stepf went home because her mother was calling her le. ate and went home. blaaaa.

went home and brother was using the com with his gf. haha. showed pictures of brother small that time and bro's gf said he was gay. no com for friday! haha. damn boring all i did was to sleep.

MYE coming and i won't be posting soooo often. i wanna score well! esp maths! starting to love maths! yay. (: so sorry if i didn't post that often!

tata. till the next post!

judjud : ITS THE TASTIEST STARS IN THE UNIVERSE! and i know u are cute. can? haaaa.

*edited.

i forget to explain bout shuai ge. i dun rb when but eith on wed or thurs, after recess we wanna play a joked. and when walking back to class, we saw one relief teacher, and i shouted " EH ! SHUAI GE!!" and the relief teacher turn around and " yes?" us. hahahaha. damn funny. went back class. could not stop laughing. HAHAHA. thats all.

serene jiejie; friendship comes a long way!!! i'll be there for you to catch u when u falls(:

sunday went to fiona house. and saw huahua. shall skip the details. ahaha. but funny anf of course fun. kieth is irratating!!!!!

yesterday. gt back maths paper. i passed! phew~ but not happy with results luh. shall work harder!! jiayou!

today went to rina hse.
band gt a bronze for syf!
proud of crystal and judith( had to put it small if not she bhb again)

projech done. yay
damntired. byebye!

sorry for not posting. was damn damn damn busy. doing homework and stuffs. didn't have enough sleep at all. so i guess i will be sleeping tmr. well see first. well let me update.

wednesday ;
i was damn lucky. cause i didn't prepare for my english presentation.

geography we went for our presentation. seriously, ours do suck. while the other grps one are damn nice? haha. kheng sheng sing solo ! eveansence-bring me back to life. and we finally saw jane's grp. okay luh.its way betterthen ours. everyone did nicely except for our grps.

maths gt back two test.
one i pass one i fail. i fail the sets one while i pass scales and maps.

science was damn boring.went to lab for life science programn. thh so called teacher looks like william hung. he talked bout DNA RNA and stuffs. dun understand at all!!

haha. then after school went home and chiong english.

thursday ;
i was the first one. rahh. lucky i nv see judith. if not she keep making me laugh. damn her! haha
&&&&&&&&&& JING CHERNG FORGET TO ZIP UP HIS PANTS. we were like laughing like mad. HAHAHA.

skip all this luh. so sian. after school stayed back in school. ate wanton mee and judith the charsiew stealer dunno steal how many loh!hmmph! and she went band for only 15 mins and attendance sake? wth luh. atyed at bar there then went home. ber went to pierce her earrrrrr. thenwent home le.

friday ;
maths was damn damn damn piss off with miss quan!! wth luh? she promised us that we'll get our results today one de, then cause one class nv test yet so cannot. then we ask her go take index list then see marks can le she flare up. fuck her luh.

pe had 5 stations.
straight As. shuttle run me and judith same, and we won fiona! yay(: haha. but i think because of my 2.4 i'll get a bronza or silver.. boobooo):

chinese had test. no one knows how to write bo zhi . wth luh. he didn't even teach loh. overall was okay luh.

science william came to our class. damn boring.

after school i was in golf!! haha. for that day only luh. played floorball. was fun and tiring too as we gt 5 items.blahblahblah. went home at 6.10
and and and. congrats to daryl goh for being promoted! haha.

thats all. sorry for not posting damn busy nowadays. sec two life.. indeeed stresssssing.

boy, please don't treat me liddat.it hurts.

i seriously feel like running away. to a place where no one hurts me and no painful memories.
but i can't.
god, please help me.

sorry friends ; i just thought of some sad and happy memories we shared together. thats why. i am feeling weak all over. someone, please pick me up from this hell.

hellohello.i know u all miss me. haha. joking (:
mr chew ( miss chew brother) is the top 40 neopets player! haha. we dun know that..
until today.. haha. and if u play maple for long, u are perservering, not addiction. hahaha.

english gt presentation. i wasn't call. but after today, miss chew is going to be more strict. uh-uh.geog M goh gave us ws and let us do for the second half of the lesson while the first half she was crapping again. i wonder if my geog will pass. lit mr yeo didn't come. so miss quan came, had maths stuff and clear our doubts.

speaking bout maths. i wana cry le. 10 marks has flown away from my paper le. aiyarh dunwan say le. say le sim tia. then chinese while practically boring. after school jud went home while me junhao crystal and rina went mall for lunch. then after that rina and crys went to my hse. rina miss a well function-computer. and she did her tempo blogskin. haha. yeps.

then they went home, we walk in the rain! haha.hope i dun get sick tmr..

haix.boy, u make me happy and sad today.i am falling deeep on love you. i know the consequences of loving you but i'll have no regrets.will you make up ure mind? ( nope, i am not falling for other boys. just think and refer to the other post, if u still dunno, ask me then.)

today is crystal birthday!!
haha(:
happy brithday to you.
happy birthday to you!
happy birthday to crystal!!!!!!!
happy birthday to you!

miss chew flare up today.because we didn't do our homework and stuffs. so she practically did nothing today except scolding us. =X chinese was boring. well it is the same everytime!! hong lao shi gave crystal M&M today for her birthday pressy. michelle's jealous, so are we!! haha. went to space for piano lesson conducted by teacher michelle and help from student judith. haha. dnt we were doing metal piece loh..

max gotta leave first. sad.. :( haha. after school went mall eat. then after that judjud they all went to collect the cake while me, stepf and junhao make crystal stay in foodcourt. then went back school. crystal surprise! haaaaaaaaa. sang birthday song to her and played with cakes. haha(: my shirt was stained with chocolates. saddddddddd .

home-ed, blogg-ed , bathe-ed.

boy, should i fall in love with you again? i really cannot forget bout you. friends ; i pick myself up. not to worry.

i am fine people. i really am. i decided to forget bout him. he is the one who did all this to hurt me. why must i care for him when he didn't even care for me? clarissa is back. yes, the cheerful clarissa is back. i won't let a guy alone to control my life. i won't even wanna die.dun give up the whole forest just for that single tree. realtionship goes along and comes along while friendships always stay(: thanks sisters.

crystal bdae coming!! haha.(:

life's liddat. we can't blame anyone at all. sorry people for not posting. as i really dun have the mood to post. today was a particular fine day.after school me rina fiona ber and winnie waited for jud and crys for their band to finish. then went home. i am sorry for suh a short post. i really dun have the mood to post.

i decided to move on with my life. no point waiting for him anymore. he doesn't even care bout me. lets just be friends. i really want to thank

• michelle!
• crystal!
• judith!
• fiona!
• bernadette!
• dawn!
• stephanie !
• serene!
• and many many more in a way or another to comfort me..

thank you girls. for being beside me and comforting me all along. judith ; thanks for telling me that.because of wad u told me, i really woke up. michelle and crystal ; i won't have any regrets anymore because i have tried my best to fight for him. its him who decided to do that. fiona stephanie, ber, dawn and everyone esle ; thank you for comforting me and supporting me. serene; for writing that post in ure blog!

boy, if this is ure decision, then i shall respect. thank you for giving me love. maybe being friends might be better then being couples. i wish you good luck in finding ure love one.goodbye. my love one.

haix. someone from st gabs can understand me.
why can't it be you?
u promised me to bring me to a field which is full of stars, but i guess i have to bring myself there alone. myself.
u may think i am gaining sympathy from other people, but have u ever try the feeling of someone betraying u?i gave u trust. like wad u wanted. 100% of trust. this is not all girls would give their bf. i believe that in a relationship, there must always be trust, faith, caring for each other and of course love.but are u faithful to me? u even like my sister.u told me u won't like her. okay, so i trust you. i trust my sister and you. my sister didn't have a single thought bout you. the person who has a single thought on her is you. i am sorry sister, if u feel insulted. but i dunblame u at all.and now u even have feelings for other girls.i really dunno wad is in your mind. i didn't know 1 yr+ relationship can be so fragile and easy to break.maybe i am really not ure cup of tea. maybe i am not giving u enough love. maybe i am not giving you wad u want, thats why u will have all this things going throught ure mind.i guess its my fault that all this are happening.haix..

god please guide me through..

we swopped class with 4 sin today.was okay. i sit with crys and mich.
i dun really feel like posting now. sorry guys.

boy, i really love you.but why are you doing this to me? the promises you gave me? have you forgotten them? one part of me still loves you deeply, the other part hates you. i really cannot forget u .come back to me will you? people might say i am stupid to give u the chance. but people, one yr + relationship isn't easy to forget.its only monday. and i am already suffering.

God, please guide me.